tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-205314472024-03-07T02:04:16.952-08:00TamaravkTamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.comBlogger166125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-11038317777133614802008-02-13T09:57:00.000-08:002008-02-13T10:05:01.694-08:00(Happy) Valentines<span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">I just made my letters a sickeningly cute pink.<br /><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I just want to say Happy Valentines to everyone who is single.<br />Because Valentines is like salt in the wound.<br />Just stay away from the malls ladies.<br /><br />Here's a poem one of my kingdom seekers told me:<br /><br />Roses are Red<br />Violets are Plastic<br />You are Great<br />But I'm Fantastic<br /><br />:)<br /><br /><span style="font-size:180%;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"></span></span><br /></span><br /></span>Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-55732297849582981162008-01-17T05:18:00.000-08:002008-01-17T05:30:23.068-08:00As of Yesterday -I am the proud owner of Noritake Dishes. Including Nappies. lol<br /><br />I'm also happy to report that bridesmaid dress shopping is DONE. For this wedding anyway. The four of us chose different dresses, but they are going to be the same color and are all floor length with some type of draping around the waist..lol. I think we will be stunning. And I'll definitely wear mine again.<br /><br />I may possibly be taking a long trip to a far away destination.<br /><br />And I think I'm the happiest I've been in a long time. "There are like, beams of sunshine coming off of you. "Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-11543088247849678382007-12-11T18:46:00.000-08:002007-12-11T18:59:50.054-08:00Welcome to the family Douglas WhyintortnessKatie just came home from catechism and dropped a bright dragon on my lap...it's extremely bright, your eyes need to refocus to look at it. Lots of shimmer and ...brightness.<br />Anyway. he's a stuffed dragon, and his name is Douglas Whyintortness. If you are Katie's friend you may meet him. wow. my sister is crazy. :)Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-43286986863900930252007-11-19T16:11:00.000-08:002007-11-19T16:24:05.752-08:00I'll be home for Christmas...ok?I have extremely talented siblings. I can't get over Laura's ability to draw, and Katie brings so much joy into our home with her humour. Caleb can read and take in knowledge at a mind boggling speed, Zach is very witty, Benjamin can make a better paper snowflake than a 25 year old, and Peter can spot a leather coat from hundreds of metres away.<br /><br />Alright...Peter has other talents as well.<br /><br />I was talking to a friend of mine about how you are attracted to people who have qualities you wish you had. It's true...because we mimic eachother. Even natural leaders will mimic other people if they are admiring them. That's what I think.Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-70756284434804171042007-11-16T05:11:00.000-08:002007-11-16T05:25:21.420-08:00Dreams...inconsistant angel thingsI had a dream last night... (and remembered it) about getting my paperwork done for writing my licensing exam. I was at highschool, and all the teachers were lined up on the front steps, and all the kids were scattered over the lawn and when the bell went everyone ran off in different directions.<br /><br />One funny thing is the school building...it's not the highschool I went to. I've somehow invented it, and it's been in my dreams before. I could draw you the lay-out I've dreamt of it so much.<br /><br />So back to the dream, I ran off in a direction too, and walked for blocks and blocks. Then I walked back when I realized I had left my purse and had no money and no cellphone. When I got back the teachers signed a few places in my book and I was off again. I have no idea what happened to my purse...or my cell phone...and I remembered wondering why I didn't get all this done while I was actually IN highschool so I wouldn't have to do all this walking.<br /><br />Dreams are crazy. But I think it pointed out to me how I feel about this paperwork. It's kinda stressing me out. In fact, my eye is twitching. Not right now, but occasionally. Last time this happened it lasted several months and had Anton convinced I was crazy. (Before that he had just assumed I was, haha<br /><br /><br />I hope you know that Christmas is less than 6 weeks away and that means it's ok to play your cds and start shopping.Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-13830999333912320192007-11-07T10:35:00.000-08:002007-11-07T10:51:39.678-08:00Alright...the last thing I should be doing on the day I decided to stop putting off studying is blog more than once...but a person needs an occasional break right? Let the knowledge seep in a bit? haha I'd say Eumelanin and Pheomelanin can wait a bit.<br /><br />I had to post again, I read something that hit a chord with me.<br />I'm reading "Look Me in the Eye" by John Robinson. He has Aspergers Syndrome, but didn't find out until late in life. This meant a rough and difficult childhood trying to pretend he was like other people and wondering why he wasn't.<br /> He gives an example in the book of trying to respond properly to a conversation with a woman he knew. He says the wrong thing and ends up offending the woman. The thing she said to him was, "One of my girlfriends is having an affair. And the guy rides a motercycle just like yours!" He had no idea how to respond to that, because she didn't say who it was, so he's wondering why she'd tell him. And her sentences weren't connected in any way he could see except for maybe because he has a motercycle he should be having an affair too...?? He ends up saying, "Which girlfriend is that?" and she is immediatly suspicious and asks him why he'd ask that. (pretty confusing)<br /> He says after giving the example that he realized later that she'd said it for his entertainment, to get a reaction out of him. He was neither entertained or had any reaction...he was just confused.<br /> He says farther on, "In my opinion, people should not make statements unless they are prepared to respond to questions about the words they utter. But the world doesn't always work that way." He knew by then that asking about which girlfriend it was was the wrong thing to say, but thinks it <em>should</em> be open season since she brought it up.<br /> <br /><br /> I've personally run into this a bit lately, people will say something to me, but I'm not suposed to question any of it, just listen and absorb and somehow understand. So I agree with him. If you don't want to reveal something, just don't mention it at all.Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-43305442728850379732007-11-07T05:49:00.000-08:002007-11-07T05:59:05.769-08:00I'm writing my licensing exam soonIt's time to get serious about this studying thing, Tamara...no more putting it off. Otherwise it will be like throwing a hundred dollers off the side of a bridge and watching it float away down the river. Or like using $100 to wall paper a dollhouse. Or like making $100 into little airplanes to throw at people.<br /><br />I actually don't care about that so much, I just want to pass it the first time. And a high mark would be nice too.Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-48555897227211599612007-11-05T04:59:00.000-08:002007-11-05T05:05:46.615-08:00Friends :)Yesterday, I did something that to anyone who didn't know me would look silly. Really silly. The cool thing was, the people who witnessed it <em>did</em> know me, and they smiled and laughed and didn't condemn me at all. And I walked away laughing too because it is so nice to be known that well.Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-39023306414348634492007-10-28T09:35:00.000-07:002007-10-28T09:51:32.311-07:00I feel betterSolution: A good talk with Funmi. <br />Issue: I had a very full brain.Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-39367419685918764952007-10-24T06:58:00.000-07:002007-10-24T07:07:36.445-07:00AAAAAAHHHH<br />Life is so strange when friends get married and have babies.<br />:)<br />:)<br />:)Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-38012732873131247922007-10-22T14:50:00.000-07:002007-10-22T14:56:55.952-07:00wooohoooHere's to nursing the artististic side of me back to life after a long sickness.<br /><br /><br />{Insert drawing of Martini here}<br />{Insert drawing of Rihanna here}<br /><br /><br /><br />hahaTamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-15073851094338845552007-10-18T16:15:00.000-07:002007-10-18T16:57:56.139-07:00)Imagine you are outside<br />you are on a boat<br />and its a big boat<br />carrying 250 people<br />and there is a breeze on your face<br />the kind of breeze that smells like sunshine<br />And you know there are people you love<br />on the boat with you<br />But right now is just a moment for you<br />And you can hear the water hitting the boat<br />But you are dry<br />and you see the splashes<br />but you are exactly the right temperature<br />Because the sun is warm<br />and it's sparkling off the water<br />enough to make you squint<br />And you feel very peaceful<br />Though the boat is speeding through the water<br />And a huge burst of energy hits you<br />As you take a deep breath<br />And Everything is perfect<br /><br />And God is so Good.Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-85823437824499586752007-10-16T05:37:00.000-07:002007-10-16T05:39:54.516-07:00:)"I had teenagers helping me chop lettuce the other night, and they just never stop, they just keep chopping until there's nothing left. So if you want lettuce theres lots." -My Mom<br /><br /><br />p.s. I am really happy right nowTamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-75114292871680191442007-10-13T16:10:00.000-07:002007-10-13T16:13:19.187-07:00>:)Next week Friday I'm doing hair for Amy and Steve's wedding.<br /><br /><br /> I LOVE THAT.<br /><br /><br />>:)Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-53590238038695867802007-10-12T18:59:00.000-07:002007-10-12T19:17:44.914-07:00So, who goes out with a famous musician?<br /><br />And why is life such a roller coaster?<br /><br />And why do I have to be two kinds of sick at the same time?<br /><br />And why can't I just understand everything and be content and full of trust in my savior?Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-33531087166491010322007-10-09T07:28:00.000-07:002007-10-09T07:42:01.425-07:00All my posts are about kids..My little brother Zach is 13...and has the peach fuzz mustache. It's not thaat bad, but I tease him about it anyway and how he needs to shave soo bad. On one such time recently, I found out that Zach has no intentions of shaving anytime soon, but my younger brother Benjamin, who is 7, often shaves. During the night after he's been put to bed and my parents are still downstairs. And he uses Mom's shaver. And he calls them "silly times".<br /><br /><br />Ummmm..guys are weird.Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-86574776508803090852007-10-03T06:35:00.000-07:002007-10-03T06:57:49.786-07:00A Natural With BabiesI've been told most of my life that I'll be a natural when it comes to babies because I grew up in a big family.<br />Maybe you were told this too.<br /><br />I'm starting to think this is really not true. I had severe anxiety taking care of one little baby on Sunday evening at church. Actually, it was more like 2 or 3 babies at times, but all the trauma was with the one. haha.<br />The mother, leaving the nursery says over her shoulder, " Just feed him this bottle and give him a quick diaper change before you lay him on his stomach to sleep"<br />Easy! Simple! I've fed babies before, I've changed diapers before, I've put babies to bed before. I was changing diapers from the time I was 7 years old. I was carting babies around on my hip from the time I could walk. I was mistaken for my little brothers mother about a hundred times.<br /><br />Well, holding a baby and a bottle at the same time is impossible. So is sitting yourself down with a baby who had a couple spit up blankets around him with the bottle on the floor. So is sitting down with just the baby while he spits up on you. twice.<br />Eventually I got settled, and he was SO cute while I fed him. just staring at me, smiling occasionally. I felt a bit better for awhile. haha<br />The diaper change...ok, so this little baby has an older brother who is still in diapers. Yes, I put the big diaper on the little baby. But I changed it once I figured out what happened. I was embarassed just thinking about his mom undressing him later and laughing at me.<br />So, baby is fed, changed, still happy, maybe a bit droopy eyed, so I went to lay him down in one of those crazy nursery cribs. I was thinking how awkward it was to lay a baby on it's stomach at shoulder height. You'd get serious muscle having a child, because as they grow your muscles grow.Have you ever thought about that? Anyway, I was also thinking that I remember being told never to lay a baby on it's stomach because they could smother. Not a calming thought, especially as he right at that moment decided to flop his head down and make little gasping sounds. I said, " What! are you choking!?" and he lifts his head and looks at me and oh man... you know the look of a baby on its stomach lifting it's head? it's funny. make sure you see it sometime.<br />Eventually he was settled, and didn't cry that much...and I think it all worked out in the end. I left the nursery thinking I wasn't going to be trying that again anytime soon.<br /><br />But I kind of miss it already.Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-71072917987957338382007-09-27T16:01:00.000-07:002007-09-27T16:06:09.024-07:00ApologizeThe song by Timberland and One Republic is enchanting...I really like it.Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-6983326305749066932007-09-25T06:04:00.000-07:002007-09-25T06:33:53.898-07:00mmmhmmm...This is the most beautiful time of year...I can't believe how blown away I am every Fall by the colors and the crispness of the air. I love the smell of Winter when I first step outside, and the wind blowing the leaves down all around me. I love starting to wear sweaters again. I love that even though it's a time where everything seems to be dying, there is so much hope because everything is being preserved and protected until Spring comes. When a Christian goes through a struggle, God blankets him, and prepares him, and is the hope for him that Spring is coming again.Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-82223164761417209312007-09-20T18:00:00.000-07:002007-09-20T18:03:11.684-07:00OUCHI am caught between two people who I feel a very strong responsibility for.<br />Neither of them seem to know it though, that I feel so strongly for them.<br />It's rough sometimes, trying to do the right thing.<br /><br /><br />I am very happy right now though. I know God is taking care of me...Mom told me when I have a bunch of kids I'll learn what patience is..but I think God is teaching me patience right now.Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-11293018459512738152007-09-11T07:05:00.000-07:002007-09-11T07:32:37.164-07:00DisappointmentIf you are optimistic, hope returns, and dreams grow easily, and you can be a happy person even after you've been hurt.<br /><br /><br />The problem is, when there is a pattern of disappointments in your life, they hurt the same everytime because you start from the same position. Like you've been re-programmed everytime and anything you learned that could prevent a crash is deleted. My pattern of disappointments is in the men I've been interested in in my life time. It's always the same thing. I hate generalizing, but it's always the same thing. I feel like I'm putting myself through this cycle because I'm missing something. ( As if I could just figure it out and solve all my problems )<br /><br /><br />I often wonder how many times I will be let down before I just quit. I've never said to myself that I've given up on my dream of a husband and kids...I've joked about it...but it's never completely crushed. I wonder if that will happen. If I'll build up some walls and hide away somewhere. Right now I kind of want to.Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-22271152429351620262007-09-06T18:30:00.000-07:002007-09-08T05:40:22.630-07:00SummerI still live here<br /><br /><br />I'm going to summerize my summer...for my sake. you can read it if you want to. :)<br /><br />May 25-26 Young Adults conference (camping)<br />June 2-4 Camping with the Gillelan's at the Pinery.<br />June 9 Burgers with the Grandparents<br />June 23-25 At Julie's in Wyoming and shopping in Michigan!<br />June 26-28 Kingdom Seeker camping at Valens<br />June 28 Got my full G...I know..4 years later...<br />July 15 Set up decorations for VBS 2007 with Kristen<br />July 21-23 Brockville to visit Isaac and Richard<br />July 28-30 The girl cousins camping at Inverhuron<br />August 4 Living Worship at Anton's church<br />August 6 Balmoral conference..my 21st birthday...<br />August 7 Martini house bridal shower for Jolene and Laura<br />August 10 Laura and Dan's wedding!<br />Aug 11-12 Young People's camping at Pinery<br />August 17 Living worship in the Park<br />August 18 Calvin's birthday party<br />Aug 27-31 Tamarack 2007!<br />Aug 31-Sept 3 Family camping at Killbear<br /><br /><br />Uh..I camped 6 times. that's a lot. thats more times than I went snowboarding last winter. a lot more. in fact, I think I only went snowboarding twice.<br />For September..I'm becoming a runner. I'm also excited about boots. I love boots. And I'm definitely going snowboarding more than twice.<br /><br />Summer..It was lovely..it can slow down a bit, I'm alright with that. I think I'm looking forward to seeing my friends again, because for some reason they are move available in the school months.Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-44412451026384845062007-08-10T18:11:00.000-07:002007-08-10T18:20:12.321-07:00At Dan and Laura's WeddingIt was called a "Wetting" (speaker was four, and sprained his finger just in time for the wetting)<br /><br />It didn't rain at all but the grass was soaking, like walking on sponges.<br /><br />The Deboer family has lots of people.<br /><br />The GBS girls did a Laura Skit.<br /><br />Laura makes one gorgeous glowing bride.<br /><br />Dan's vows made me cry. (right after I had said to a friend " I didn't cry at my best friend's wedding or even my brother's wedding") (brag brag)<br /><br />" Laura, there has always been tension between us...You were always the girl I couldn't have...When you told me I <em>could</em> have you, it changed my life"Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-1573044556801003552007-08-03T18:12:00.000-07:002007-08-03T18:42:26.857-07:0021My birthday is on Monday....I'm not too sure about this one. All my life I've been told I look older...and all my life I've felt younger...but being 20 I finally fit. lol<br /><br /><br />One thing I know about people now is you can reach 21 years and be very naive and innocent and inexperienced and have 'no idea', etc...in some peoples' eyes, but that doesn't mean you aren't an adult.Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20531447.post-37508146232542205862007-07-14T14:39:00.000-07:002007-07-14T14:45:58.613-07:00I missed herKatie is home from camp.<br />I got home from work at 4:20.<br />It's 6:00.<br /><br /> and I'm still waiting for her to wake up from the nap she NEEDED.<br />maaaan.Tamarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14946058354519745380noreply@blogger.com0