Tamaravk

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Apologize

The song by Timberland and One Republic is enchanting...I really like it.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

mmmhmmm...

This is the most beautiful time of year...I can't believe how blown away I am every Fall by the colors and the crispness of the air. I love the smell of Winter when I first step outside, and the wind blowing the leaves down all around me. I love starting to wear sweaters again. I love that even though it's a time where everything seems to be dying, there is so much hope because everything is being preserved and protected until Spring comes. When a Christian goes through a struggle, God blankets him, and prepares him, and is the hope for him that Spring is coming again.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

OUCH

I am caught between two people who I feel a very strong responsibility for.
Neither of them seem to know it though, that I feel so strongly for them.
It's rough sometimes, trying to do the right thing.


I am very happy right now though. I know God is taking care of me...Mom told me when I have a bunch of kids I'll learn what patience is..but I think God is teaching me patience right now.

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Disappointment

If you are optimistic, hope returns, and dreams grow easily, and you can be a happy person even after you've been hurt.


The problem is, when there is a pattern of disappointments in your life, they hurt the same everytime because you start from the same position. Like you've been re-programmed everytime and anything you learned that could prevent a crash is deleted. My pattern of disappointments is in the men I've been interested in in my life time. It's always the same thing. I hate generalizing, but it's always the same thing. I feel like I'm putting myself through this cycle because I'm missing something. ( As if I could just figure it out and solve all my problems )


I often wonder how many times I will be let down before I just quit. I've never said to myself that I've given up on my dream of a husband and kids...I've joked about it...but it's never completely crushed. I wonder if that will happen. If I'll build up some walls and hide away somewhere. Right now I kind of want to.

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Summer

I still live here


I'm going to summerize my summer...for my sake. you can read it if you want to. :)

May 25-26 Young Adults conference (camping)
June 2-4 Camping with the Gillelan's at the Pinery.
June 9 Burgers with the Grandparents
June 23-25 At Julie's in Wyoming and shopping in Michigan!
June 26-28 Kingdom Seeker camping at Valens
June 28 Got my full G...I know..4 years later...
July 15 Set up decorations for VBS 2007 with Kristen
July 21-23 Brockville to visit Isaac and Richard
July 28-30 The girl cousins camping at Inverhuron
August 4 Living Worship at Anton's church
August 6 Balmoral conference..my 21st birthday...
August 7 Martini house bridal shower for Jolene and Laura
August 10 Laura and Dan's wedding!
Aug 11-12 Young People's camping at Pinery
August 17 Living worship in the Park
August 18 Calvin's birthday party
Aug 27-31 Tamarack 2007!
Aug 31-Sept 3 Family camping at Killbear


Uh..I camped 6 times. that's a lot. thats more times than I went snowboarding last winter. a lot more. in fact, I think I only went snowboarding twice.
For September..I'm becoming a runner. I'm also excited about boots. I love boots. And I'm definitely going snowboarding more than twice.

Summer..It was lovely..it can slow down a bit, I'm alright with that. I think I'm looking forward to seeing my friends again, because for some reason they are move available in the school months.