Apologize

The song by Timberland and One Republic is enchanting...I really like it.

mmmhmmm...

This is the most beautiful time of year...I can't believe how blown away I am every Fall by the colors and the crispness of the air. I love the smell of Winter when I first step outside, and the wind blowing the leaves down all around me. I love starting to wear sweaters again. I love that even though it's a time where everything seems to be dying, there is so much hope because everything is being preserved and protected until Spring comes. When a Christian goes through a struggle, God blankets him, and prepares him, and is the hope for him that Spring is coming again.

OUCH

I am caught between two people who I feel a very strong responsibility for.
Neither of them seem to know it though, that I feel so strongly for them.
It's rough sometimes, trying to do the right thing.


I am very happy right now though. I know God is taking care of me...Mom told me when I have a bunch of kids I'll learn what patience is..but I think God is teaching me patience right now.

Disappointment

If you are optimistic, hope returns, and dreams grow easily, and you can be a happy person even after you've been hurt.


The problem is, when there is a pattern of disappointments in your life, they hurt the same everytime because you start from the same position. Like you've been re-programmed everytime and anything you learned that could prevent a crash is deleted. My pattern of disappointments is in the men I've been interested in in my life time. It's always the same thing. I hate generalizing, but it's always the same thing. I feel like I'm putting myself through this cycle because I'm missing something. ( As if I could just figure it out and solve all my problems )


I often wonder how many times I will be let down before I just quit. I've never said to myself that I've given up on my dream of a husband and kids...I've joked about it...but it's never completely crushed. I wonder if that will happen. If I'll build up some walls and hide away somewhere. Right now I kind of want to.

Summer

I still live here


I'm going to summerize my summer...for my sake. you can read it if you want to. :)

May 25-26 Young Adults conference (camping)
June 2-4 Camping with the Gillelan's at the Pinery.
June 9 Burgers with the Grandparents
June 23-25 At Julie's in Wyoming and shopping in Michigan!
June 26-28 Kingdom Seeker camping at Valens
June 28 Got my full G...I know..4 years later...
July 15 Set up decorations for VBS 2007 with Kristen
July 21-23 Brockville to visit Isaac and Richard
July 28-30 The girl cousins camping at Inverhuron
August 4 Living Worship at Anton's church
August 6 Balmoral conference..my 21st birthday...
August 7 Martini house bridal shower for Jolene and Laura
August 10 Laura and Dan's wedding!
Aug 11-12 Young People's camping at Pinery
August 17 Living worship in the Park
August 18 Calvin's birthday party
Aug 27-31 Tamarack 2007!
Aug 31-Sept 3 Family camping at Killbear


Uh..I camped 6 times. that's a lot. thats more times than I went snowboarding last winter. a lot more. in fact, I think I only went snowboarding twice.
For September..I'm becoming a runner. I'm also excited about boots. I love boots. And I'm definitely going snowboarding more than twice.

Summer..It was lovely..it can slow down a bit, I'm alright with that. I think I'm looking forward to seeing my friends again, because for some reason they are move available in the school months.