Crazy Site...

datetosave.com

What is this world coming to?

That's not me by the way. We just have a common name.
I found it when I was doing the 'Tamara needs' google search. but it went a little random.

anyway, according to Google I have great needs...

1.Tamara needs to meet with Ben and discuss options. Ben, we need to discuss options.
2.Tamara needs a good..... Date lol...Calv!!!MOvie NIGHT!
3.Tamara needs people to be on this committee to define and share the work. Amen.
4.Tamara needs to live a full life without limits. mmmHMmmm
5.Tamara needs to catch up with the times and become aware of the new technologies of today. (i.e. Cell phone)
6.Tamara needs someone to just totally rock her world.Yes...I really do. Where the heck are you?
7. Tamara needs to be an RN. ...I had no idea.
8.Tamara needs more mate-. rial. (It was written like this exactly-and I don't know what it means.)
9.Tammy Needs Your Help Now. Where the heck are you!!?
10.Tamara definitely needs the lead role in something.

I've had the lead role in a play...I was Bottom on a Midsummer Night's Dream. siigh....I love shakespear. I don't love looking back on that play-I had to turn into a donkey, fall in love with a woman and sing by myself in front of a crowd of people. I am a different person today-I know it. I wouldn't be able to do that anymore.
Nothing that remarkable has happened lately.

I was

I was just typing.

I wasn't typing anything that interesting or hard to type, so I looked down at my hands.

Not because I have to search for the keys anymore.

Or because I have bright orange nails.

But for whatever reason, I looked at my hands and noticed that they are really old.

Well, 'really' may be pushing it.

But in comparison to before Marvel they are super old.




My point is, Hairdressers deserve tips because their work makes them get old looking.





HEHE!


come to think of it, I think I did look at my hands because of the orange polish. But who cares.

I'm cursed with wells!

Well, turns out most of the guys I know are smart and beautiful, and the girls are humble... That makes it sound like I know about 3 guys, because if that were true, then having 2 guys say they were smart and beautiful really is most of the guys I know.
But I know more than 3 guys, so I guess my first sentence was a lie.


I am going to have the most amazing portfolio ever. When I am almost done school I need to hand it in. I have about 3 1/2 months to make it. teehee.

The fall colors in Burlington are beautiful right now...I almost hit the mini van in front of me while I was looking at them. That would have been bad because that mini van had lots of expensive sound equipment in it. It would have been bad for my car too. And I don't think I would have been able to get over it. So anyway. I love fall. mmmhmm.

My sister:
" AHhh! heehahahe!! It's like, Waaaahhh cathunk WhoootWOOTblachm..hahahahaha! Siigh!"

My other sister is funny too. But I find it hard to remember everything she says because it's usually long winded and complicated. I laugh at the time, and then forget. Caleb remembers everything. He remembered the stupid thing I said in the car on the way to school the other day and said it at the dinner table tonight. wheeeee

I have a big test on wednesday. but I forgot to bring my textbook home. So I went to Peter and Candice's and cut hair and watched corner gas. And I was this happy about not studying electricity

:D

bye!

I have a diploma...cool

I can still smell that bad breath....
lol

Tonight was my McMaster Grad. YAY! I finally had a graduation ceremony. It was my first ever. In grade 8 Mom said this, " Lets buy you a dress and we'll take you out for dinner and get pictures done!"......I got a dress.........a downside of being homeschooled.

Grade 12, I didn't really finish, so I went to highschool...and didn't really finish....and so I finally had a real grad to go to tonight and I went. (Even though I didn't RSVP and thought I'd be denied entry.)

I sat by a man with really bad breath. But he was a smart man. And most of the people walking across that platform were very smart, but none of them seemed to care about their hair or weight or teeth or breath, but they were smart! So does it matter? Maybe you can't be smart AND beautiful.


What do you think?

Katie is Awesome

The past 6 days or so have been rough.
But I have a few friends who come through when I don't expect it. It's so cool.
I was dropped a note that said 'Tamara' with hearts all over it just when I needed something-even if I didn't know what it was at that minute, on Monday night and felt loads better and glued it into my journal.
It happened again today, a note with 'Tamara' and hearts all over it. It was from a different friend, 2 friends actually, and contained these words;



TiaMara:

Do you still love us?Check Yes or No.

Yes (you better check this one)
No (you better NOT check this one!



I'm a bit of a rebel and x'ed instead of checked...but they just threw a towel at me and I think we are still friends..lol. the reason they wrote me was 'cause I ignored them after they seemed to be ignoring me. SO I was committing revenge and they were super sweet about it...in their own way.



Anyway. I really wanted to be a Living Worship groupie on th 28th but found out that I had to work, so I was coming to terms with the loss ... when I was told that I HAD to be at youngpeoples. I knew there was a guilt trip involved if I said no, so I was a bit bugged because I feel forced now and when it comes to yps I don't want to be forced. Forced happiness just doesn't cut it you know?

"You can go to the one this week ( if you want!)" Well thanks! you guys are super nice!

I'll get over it though, at least I'm making money now. Maybe I'll be able to pay off my Dad, my insurance, and those wedding presents. Keep getting engaged and married people! I'm learning a good life lesson- what it means to be poor. But someday it will be my turn and then you can spend money on me.


That will be great.

Haircuts!

Zach..coolest brother ever. I didn't let him know that I had cut his hair into a mohawk until after I took a few pictures. uhh..if I had told him before he wouldn't have let me. So I just did it. I'm nice eh?















Katie, and her new cut...she's just super gorgeous I think. And yes, those are her pajama's. When I was homeschooled I didn't get dressed until the afternoon either.















And my latest cut..which I did not do myself. My teacher styled it like that, I usually can't get it to curl so I don't even try. :)

Talking to a brick wall

I think the way people think and what they do and say and think and all the complex little things that are involved with communication are absolutely amazing and never fail to impress me and frustrate me at the same time. I want badly to understand, but I know that if I ever do understand I will switch to something else.

........................ I'm so thankful for people like Katie who just know what I mean even when I jump all over.

I thought I was too busy to think, but I seem to find time after the fact. I was cutting hair past the usual lunch hour at school, so I took my lunch alone.
I'm only a little bit scared of the people in Galt, so I sat outside in front of the school on the edge of the window along the sidewalk. I sat near enough to the door that I could just get up and go in if someone who wasn't normal walked by and tried to talk to me. It was sunny out, just after raining for the entire morning and it became one of those moments where the world seems to slow down and you actually notice the things around you and where you are, rather than being there without realizing it because you are (thinking too much.)
Anyway, the sun was reflecting off the cars into my eyes, and it was breezy . Then things suddenly got really quiet, and the sun went behind a cloud, then a car honked and a bug fell from the sky and landed with a thunk onto the hood of the car right in front of me, slid on it's back off the car and landed on the ground on it's back and waved it's feet in the air for a few seconds before flipping over. I saw it all happen, but didn't actually SEE it until it replayed in my head. Then I had to laugh...
I have it almost everyday where things happen, but it doesn't click until it's been replayed in my head with me actually paying attention. I think it's because I generally need review anyway..lol. Or I'm thinking about something else and there's no room. I know that I'm listening, but I'm listening and storing things without intentionally doing it. I can replay conversations in my head in the proper voices, but it's a bit random when I do remember. If I wasn't able to do this I think I'd be confused all the time, instead of just some of the time...because I'd miss stuff. I day dream too much, so things over lap.

That's probably why I suck at organization and just simply remembering things. I forget to do things ALL THE TIME. I don't think it's memory anymore though, because if you have a bad memory you have a bad memory in everything, not just a few things. I'm a bit of a let down everywhere because of my problem. People depend on me to do something and I actually forget, even when it's my boss on my first shift telling me to shampoo so and so in 5 minutes. 5 minutes later another stylist asks me to shampoo someone else and I'm like, " sure!" forgetting my boss's client completely and usually giving me a bit of a heart attack when I do remember 30 seconds too late. !!! 5 minutes!

I could make this a good thing, I mean, my brain naturally prioritizes and only allows me to think about one or two things at a time. I know how to tune out everything and focus thanks to growing up in a big loud family and homeschooling. This would be a good thing if my brain naturally prioritized in the proper order. That would be awesome.

Epilating by Tamara

Tomorrow I am buying a wax melter for hair waxing. I had three things that I wanted to buy all at the same time, (Cell phone, Camera, and the wax machine) and I decided on buying the item that will help me make money rather than suck it out of me. So even though I need them all sort of...it seemed smarter to start eyebrow waxing here at home. I try to do the smart thing occasionally, for my Dad's sake. I think his minimal grey hair comes from me. heehee

So if you want your eyebrows, chin, upper lip or the top of your nose waxed, let me know :) I know of one brave man who is going to let me wax the back of his neck after his next haircut. The place where I usually just shave it will now be smoother longer! I shouldn't say brave, because waxing isn't that painful. seriously. It's more of a surprise.

The people at school told me that the weather last night was amazing...but I didn't see or hear any of it. I woke up to my alarm at 7:00 and heard a really long loud boom (ahem..thunder) then I jumped in the shower and went to school and by then it was a mere spattering of rain. I remember thinking (for a split second) that my Mom should have woken me up to see it.

This afternoon

I went to the Hamilton Life Chain. I couldn't decide which city to go to, but ended up in Hamilton. It was good. I had a nice talk with Julia about stuff.
When we were younger, my friends and I would count how many honks and middle fingers we'd get. It's a bit harder to approach it that way as you get older. I don't think it showed today, but abortion effects me pretty badly, and I've never dealt with it directly. In highschool I did a painting of a baby in the womb, and I was suposed to talk about it to my classmates and teacher on a given day, and I thought about what I would say, but just ended up standing there sobbing. It was kind of rough. I don't know why it is, but I can hear about war and famine and not blink an eye, but abortion gets to me.

Anyway. It's been a really beautiful day-I forced myself to go outside because I know the leaves are all going to be off the trees in a matter of days and I want to see them before they are all gone. I think I missed them at their best though. :( sad. Should have forced myself sooner. We have 39 acres of swampy/maple-lyness that we barely ever use. It's perfect breeding ground for mosquitoes and tent caterpillars and all those other lovely creatures.



I'm back...it's evening now. I just got home from church and I'm eating the one type of food that I try to only eat once a year. Pumpkin Pie. I really really like it, but its too much after one slice, and I need a year to recover. lol. That's possibly not true though, I may have had my last slice less than a year ago. I'm not too exact.
Now I'm going to watch a romantic movie upstairs. I need help...99.9 times out of 100 I only watch movies that have passed the inspection of at least 4 people in my house. That means anything science fiction, cleanfunny or family friendly is ok in the evening, and the rest of the day it's only family friendly. I understand the reasoning behind this, since we have lots of little kids running around, but we only have one t.v. with only 6 channels and because of the movie scanning I don't see very many movies I want to. Does anyone want to have a movie night? :)