I can't figure it out and that's ok.

My parents were just walking towards the door, about to drive away in their jeep for 'date night' (probably going to Rona) when my Mom said, " Maybe we shouldn't leave the kids here alone with Nicole..." (Nicole is Katie's rebellious-middle-child friend. Who isn't actually rebellious at all, it was their attempt at a joke)
Then Katie yells after them as they exit the house; giggling together, " Don't worry! Tam is here! She's old!"

hhaaaaaackk

So I'm considering being Campfire staff strongly. Not because of me being old, it's a new topic. I'm just trying to earn support from my parents who think I should work and not not work anymore. because I've been doing that for a long time. I think I was up to a year, then worked for like 3 months, and now it's been 3 weeks since I had a real job. yay! freedom! Maybe I can find something for a few months again, and then be a campfire-er for 2 months. sounds lovely.
It's all up to God, He's doing something complex and unclear right now, but like all His plans, they will come clear according to His timing, and they are always amazing.